Embracing 2012
And so, we say goodbye to 2011 and keep all the memories in a secret vault only the mind can access.
It has been a year full of heartbreaks for me. And with it also comes the rebirth of me as a character in my own making.
Life has been quite fair I guess.
I haven’t been writing much since I broke up with Shaine. Not much of a point really. But with her departure from my life, I haven’t been able to do much except devote my time to work, work and work. It’s paid off I guess, with me getting promoted last December. At least, there’s something good that happened for me in 2011.
I had given up trying to exercise my legal rights of access for my two lil angels but it doesn’t mean that I’ve let go of the hopes that we will be reunited one day. I still miss them dearly and been trying to locate them on their whereabouts. In fact, Lily is starting her Primary 1 education this year, and I’ve been trying to find which school she attends to.
So, that’s something I look forward to in 2012.
The unfinished novella is still work in progress. So I guess I’ll try to get something done this year. Hopefully. I’m such a procrastinate.
Work have taken so much toll in terms of my personal life. I devote myself to it. And it’s been a positive experience for me. Trying to move up the corporate ladder, and learning new things in term of management. I’m enjoying every single moment of it in fact.
That the bunch of people I work for, and the ones that I work with are like my second family that I have learnt to love and assimilate with. Every day is a different challenge for me.
For the whole of 2011, I have been looking back and wondering if I could do better.
Now in 2012, I am just looking forward and know that better things are in store for me.
Love life is something I have decided to put on a back burner now. Over the year, I have tried to get over Shaine and the memories that we have. And spectacularly not getting anywhere. I realised that maybe I have lost the capacity to love anyone the way I had loved her. So in terms of having a relationship, I guess 2012 is not the year for anything romantic to happen for me.
And much of me not getting much in blogger is because I have been Tumblr-ing a lot. Still trying to see if I can integrate it together since Tumblr is where I put in my daily quotes and not much of how I write.
So, I started the year sober but not celibate and that would pretty much set the tone for the rest of the year. I will not let the setback from the past hold me back. Rather will strive to move forward as much as I can and as much as I’m capable of.
Life is beautiful. Let the voice in your heart take control when the one in your head doesn’t make any sense.
